My New Flame

Wow, haven't posted anything in awhile.. well here we go again (smirks) A lot has happened and I am beginning to wonder if the future is that exciting. I know I'm in the present more now (better than before where I stressed over the past and future) I'm more chill and taking things seriously, of course you got to be a kid every once and awhile, enjoy the little things, even if you don't have a lot. I'm still going on the computer and playing some sort of game or talking to people again. I have a group of friends I hold dear to me and some I just got back to talking to, makes me happy and I know what keeps me at float even if others see it as a way to escape real life (shrugs) who cares, they were all upset that I was bugging them in real life and saying I should go do my own thing, so here I am (smiles) I'm glad I am not popular, I can be content and not as hyper as I use to be. I want to be happy all the time, of course I have felt so many emotions, some times all at once (laughs) I would be surprised to see the look on my lovers face if he was always sitting next to me, he would think I was crazy, being single still gets to me but I know I still have love for everyone, the one true love hasn't truly hit me yet, maybe sparks but I want my love to last with someone who can see a house, kids, and growing old together, sounds silly but I can't see that online and try seeing that in real life just turns to be heart breaking experiences (scratches head with a sigh) I would say to not worry about me with all this but I know its hard, I even worry, even more for others, I want to look after all my friends and know we all have feelings, just because we are on the internet doesn't make us robots. One day we will have the technology to go into a game and interact with people like in real life (daydreams) I have an over-acting imagination, if my mind were on some paper we would need a huge piece of paper (laugh) Anyway, as for my work for Dollar Tree, I'm now head cashier, meaning I make sure the other cashiers do what they need to do and if they need help I am there, always in the front of the store and making sure if looks nice for the customers, I am always working in the morning time by myself so I know how to get the work done so the afternoon cashier doesn't have to worry about much and to ring customers up while helping them, answering questions, taking care of concerns so now I rarely call on the managers. The beginning of training to become an assistant manager, sounds awesome (giggles) I can't do much now but when I do I will help everyone out because us cashiers have enough to put up with. Working is great and I have no problems with it, there is stress but I take pride in my work more now and understand it. Well I hope one day I can get my car and move out, I can't keep living like this, with my parents, getting nothing accomplished so I shall get started with first.. going to school...

P.S.- Check out my friends music: http://x-p38.bandcamp.com/album/dead-planet

~Happy

"I'm not gonna run away & I never go back on my word, That is my Ninja Way!"